Well, don't worry about this one. I'm sure anyone who knows you understands
what is actually gong on! I have also been miserable on the old cart--it is
a time tested way to weed out art teachers who may be (even slightly) faint
hearted! It really sucks bigtime and to boot you have to "grin and bear it".
Having spent my fair share of years in this position, let's just say that
things can (and maybe will) get better.... I'm very happy now in my own room
teaching a schedule which (although it requires 5 preps) really plays to my
strong suits.... Take heart. YOU are ok...and things will get better.