Thanks. There have been some rewards, and I know that I need to focus
more on those rather than all of the hard stuff. This morning, one of
those same students came back with two more beautiful rainbow erasers.
She came with another boy who wanted my opinion on his artwork. Last
night he cranked out about 10 drawings! Two of them were portraits of
family members made using the grid technique I had just taught them in
class. It really made me feel wonderful that a student was so excited
about something he learned in my class that he wanted to show his
family and practice at home. I've had other students from that
terrible last term come and visit me and tell me how much they miss me.
Several of them try to sneak back into my class. I'll turn around and
see them sitting in their old seats, and I have to shoo them out. I'm
trying my hardest to make this last term different...trying not to get
as angry, trying to use more humor than ever, allowing certain things
to slide that really aren't so important to me...things that perhaps I
was trying to stand firm on because I thought I had to, trying to never
let them see me frazzled...it's hard, but I'm really working on it.
When a student gets in trouble in my class, I'm following through, but
I'm also going up to that child the next day and joking with him to let
him know that I'm not holding a grudge. So far, it's been different,
and I think a lot has to do with this new group, but I have a feeling
that my attitude is different too.